sweet sorrow

started writing this post last sunday. it's been pretty hard to finish it.

my beautiful grandma hammond passed away last week. after being told for several months that she was only suffering from allergies, the doctors finally found what they had missed all along: cancer. she was supposed to start chemo. we talked about what cute haircuts she could get before she lost all her hair. and then monday they said terminal. four weeks. hospice. and pulled the rug out from under everyone. we planned on going up to see her one last time before we went to new york. but by wednesday she had gone.

it was hard to be at her house in idaho over the weekend. to see the stacks of unopened get-well-soon cards and mother's day gifts. the scattered sewing projects around the house. thinking that at any moment she would walk around the corner and ask if we wanted a soda pop. and hear her say "well i'll be darned" after i finished telling her a story.

the funeral was perfectly simple and quiet - just like her. 

i wish i could give her one more hug. tell her how much i love her. how grateful i am for her strength and example despite all the heartache she was put through.

someday.